just in my life

I am living in a tropical city which name is Sanya.

it is the only one which is tropical city in China.

i thought that i would love there so mcuh,

i assumed that, i would have so much happiness in there,

so i went there alone and now study in there.

at that time,

all my friends and family members were angist my chooses

but i still decided to come to here,

i was very exciting that i can come,

but soon, i found that i was so stupid and innocent,

in there ,

people was so complicated,

they want to hurt you and cheat you all the time,

the friends you thought were not your friends,

the person you trust maybe were not worth you trusting,

it is just the rule of life,

you must learn how to protect yourself from other's cheating and injuring,

you must learn how to smile to everyone whether you like or haten them,

at present,

i was so tired,

i hate all the pretended person,

whereas,

i am also a pretended one .

in Sanya,

i lost my families，

lost my true friends,

meanwhile,

lost my real love,

as the matter of fact,

it is my own choose,

i need to accept it,

accordingly,

i smile to myself instead of crying,

i learn to the rules as possible as i can,

nowadays,

i am not as a child,

i can deal with all kinds of things,

no matter it is good or not,

such as how to get on well with the person you donot like,

how to get together with them,

when need you to keep silence and shut up ,

and what the time you say something····

actually i hate the person like me now,

but i have no choose except for doing like this,

i cannot approved all the people,

not everyone like me,

but i just want to do myself ,

that's all....

at the same time , i donot think it is selfish,

just one way you protect yourself.

it is my life,

just my life which is choosed by myself.

Sanya,

a very beautiful city,

but it is not really belong to me.