『Life is just as a gift』

Some people said that "they're the 'beatniks",because of we had different colors in hair,wore strange clothes, and were strongly against social convention, even sometimes we also called it "非主流"in chinese. But we are not real beatnik. As known that, there're different thoughts between us and the elders. Some of them are not accepted.

I have yellow hair instead of inbred black, last week had red nails and now changed it in blue. I'd like wear bright color and also like rock music. But i am sure that i am not belong to the beatnik. We just do ourselves. We show that the real us to everyone.

The life is just as a gift. It is needs we to cherish and enjoy it. Once i saw a word in a book, it is said that,"if you don't feel happy, pretend to be!" Maybe one day you can feel that the happiness and joy is filled with your life!

just in my life

I am living in a tropical city which name is Sanya.

it is the only one which is tropical city in China.

i thought that i would love there so mcuh,

i assumed that, i would have so much happiness in there,

so i went there alone and now study in there.

at that time,

all my friends and family members were angist my chooses

but i still decided to come to here,

i was very exciting that i can come,

but soon, i found that i was so stupid and innocent,

in there ,

people was so complicated,

they want to hurt you and cheat you all the time,

the friends you thought were not your friends,

the person you trust maybe were not worth you trusting,

it is just the rule of life,

you must learn how to protect yourself from other's cheating and injuring,

you must learn how to smile to everyone whether you like or haten them,

at present,

i was so tired,

i hate all the pretended person,

whereas,

i am also a pretended one .

in Sanya,

i lost my families，

lost my true friends,

meanwhile,

lost my real love,

as the matter of fact,

it is my own choose,

i need to accept it,

accordingly,

i smile to myself instead of crying,

i learn to the rules as possible as i can,

nowadays,

i am not as a child,

i can deal with all kinds of things,

no matter it is good or not,

such as how to get on well with the person you donot like,

how to get together with them,

when need you to keep silence and shut up ,

and what the time you say something····

actually i hate the person like me now,

but i have no choose except for doing like this,

i cannot approved all the people,

not everyone like me,

but i just want to do myself ,

that's all....

at the same time , i donot think it is selfish,

just one way you protect yourself.

it is my life,

just my life which is choosed by myself.

Sanya,

a very beautiful city,

but it is not really belong to me.

something i was thinking of

Both of us are not saint ,

we cannot approved all the people.

i remembered that,

i had a real lover who is my first true love,

i ever thought that he was all my life,

i could do all the things for him,

i could gave all of mine,

but now,

i lost him,

slowly,

i found that there were another things need i noticed,

paid more attention to them,

such as friendship and kinship.

maybe him made me unforgetable and sadness,

but really he made me grew up.

i was no longer a child ,

i knew more about me and my life,

there still many things need i do,

i cannot give up!

someone once said ,

"Don't ever be blue!"

too many things are not our faults,

but need we accept it,

now ,

i can face up to my responsibilities and not try to get out of them.

i was waiting for someone

In my waiting full of confidencein ，

my almost wearing out one's eyes waiting ，

in waiting that my hurt tortures,

in there being no a resentment,

in my friendly despaired waiting.

in me there being no waiting regretting...

Much time of a bit inferior carpet of flowers fallen flowers

scattering and flying around like snow flakes,

a bit inferior yellow leaves of much time of complicated branch

Ye Mao drifts about alone, a bit inferior withered grass of float

a bit inferior luxuriant growth of grass of drizly a bit inferior

winter of much time of spring rain snow continuously,....

My have been waiting , silent waiting ,patient waiting.

tomorrow is another day &彼岸花開

I was sleeping all the afternoon.

maybe i was so tired,

maybe i was a little lazy,

maybe i didnot want to see the people around me .

maybe, i just want to stay alone and calm down.

i began to read the Old Testament,

it was said that,

all the things is made by god,

it is so amazing,

he divided the water from the water,

he divided the male from the female,

he divided the light from the darkness.

then ,

we have the earth and seas,

we have the men and women,

we have the day and night.

i like the one word which is said that in Chinese is "彼岸花開"

it is meaning of "tomorrow is another day!"

we can expect the beautiful flower come out in the other bank.

it is our hope .

so i love that word very much.

today,

i still listening to a song which name is "淺唱"。

i love it very much,

but everytime i listened,

i always felt a little blue,

just a little```

but still love it.

this is the URL of the song:http://image.clubzone.cn/dj_music/music/20071129120413.mp3

if you like it ,

you can try to listen it!

i hope you can like it!

just our way , just our life!

Just watched a film which name is creat expectation

when the boy is a child , he met a beautiful girl, he falled in love with her at the first sight.

but the girl's aunt told him , "the girl will made he feel sad and sorrow"

several years past, the boy became famous than before . and he met the girl in the NY street. he still do love her so much. but the girl is other's girlfriend and will be married the other person.

the boy called on the old lady in her house, the old lady laughed at him, then he put the old lady's hand above his chest, he asked the old lady the same question "can you feel anything?" which is the old lady had asked him in several years ago .

then the boy said , "it is my heart" "but now it was broken now!"

the old lady's tears spilled out , so did the boy.

everyone has his or her real love,

"the heart was broken now"

make me think more about my life,

people always said that,

if only,

if only,

but we donot know to cherish now,

we laughed and cried,

we bite off more than we could chew,

we loved and hated,

as the song singed that,

it is so amusing,

it was our way,

it was our life!

something in my life

Now, a new day was begin!

i woke up at 3pm,

lol

today is not a rainning day,

but have so many clouds,

i remembered someone,

i really missing him so much,

but we are not friend ever,

just like stranger!

someone must be come across in the spical place,

and met you,

talked with you,

made you feel so much happiness,

and then said goodbye to you!

that is the truth!

you must to learn accpet it.

although i still missing him so much,

i could accept the fact he has gone,

i could accept he is not the one i was familiar.

i need fighting,

i need smile all day,

i need said to myself you can do better!

my dear,

i didnot smoking now,

i didnot drinking now,

i didnot crying now,

i just smile, smile, smile now.

someone is likes an angle,

when you need them,

they will be appear and around you,

help you and love you,

and then ,

they will be leave,

the next time,

when you need them again,

they will play an new role aroud you,

all the people like an angle,

we smile , love and help each other,

the life is just like this,

the life needs we cherish!

i donot know

i donot know what i want to! all the people have their dreams. i settled down there today! i want to speak loudly in english, i want to improve my english! but i donot know how can i improve it . in thoes days, i just felt so much happiness and sadness. i want to smoke, but i couldnot find any cigarettes, i want to cry loudly, but i donot have any tears. i donnot know anythings what can i do . i donnot know who am i now? just felt so much happiness and sadness````